Ya know, I used to think that when my friends or acquaintances would complain about feeling "unappreciated", they were just making it up. They were just trying to get some sympathy from others. Now, I realize that they were not. I used to feel that there's no way I would ever feel that way, b/c I grew up in a pretty appreciative family. Now, I'm not so sure. Since I've been home and not working, I feel like everything I do is going un-noticed or unappreciated. I try to bust my ass to keep this house neat, granted it's not super spotless, but it's clean none the less. Sure, there are things here and there, but for the most part I try to keep it neat. Well, it would be nice sometimes if I wasn't expected to do some things all the damn time. Every morning, I clean up the kitchen (g'dads breakfast mess included), even re-cleaning sometimes after lunch b/c g'dad makes another mess. Granted, I don't make dinner every night. It would be nice some evenings to NOT do the dishes (or to not be EXPECTED to do them, just b/c I don't mind doing it so much now that I'm home).
I've gotten to where I'm OCD about some things too, and it irks the ever livin hell out of me when something's not done right or used properly. The kitchen has become one of those places that I have everything in a certain place for a reason, and by jiminy, that's where it freakin belongs! If I make a spot for something, and tell you that's where it should be, then put it there! Yeah, some might say I'm getting anal about this stuff, but dammit, when you work hard enough on something, or work on it every damn day and people don't pay attention or do whatever they want, it's irritating!!
If I wanted to feel unappreciated for the hard work I do, then I would go back to work at one of my previous jobs! No wonder I get irritated easily these days! I'm already under enough stress as it is trying to find another job, b/c I wasn't welcome to come back to my last one. I'm struggling hugely with money issues b/c I'm not working. I'm beginning to wonder if my life will ever get straightened out. If I'll ever make it on my own. If I'll ever find that one to settle down with and start my own family. Or am I just destined to live the rest of my life with my mom as my room mate? Don't get me wrong, I love my mom...but I need to start my own family. Damn, I'll be 31 in 22 more days...what's so wrong with me that I haven't started my own family yet? Why are guys so scared of me? Why do they think of me more as a friend/pal than relationship material? Oh well, that's another blog for another day. Just had to get some feelings off my chest before I completely explode!
Monday, December 29, 2008
I Forgot!!
Oh, I forgot one thing that I was gonna say...
I was introduced to this online dating site OKCupid and thought I'd give it a try. So far, it's one of the better sites I've ever been on. And it's FREE!! Yeah, I said free...100% totally free! Don't have to pay to send a message to someone or browse or anything else like that. And they use the same algorithm's as do the other pay sites to match you. Anyway, while there, I was also introduced to HelloQuizzy,which is a neat little quiz/test site. They have close to like 5000+ quizzes/tests to take for enjoyment and entertainment. Quite fun! I also have gotten into creating tests also and have done 3 so far..working on a 4th. Simple little tests...Name That Tune types, using midi's for listening. A tad easier than the ones where they simply type out the lyrics to a song. At least you get to listen. Anyway, if you are interested, check em out. I don't think you actually have to be a member of HelloQuizzy to take them, unless you want to keep up on your progress. I'm including the links to my tests so you can take them if you like. Hope you enjoy!
Name That Tune - 80's Edition
Name That Tune - Movies Edition
Name That Tune - 90's Edition
I think they turned out pretty good. The 80's was my first one, so it may seem a little...less...refined than the other 2. Anyway, the 4th one that I'm working on is a TV Theme edition. As soon as I get it up and running, I'll post it here for you. As will I do with any others that I come up with!
Ok, enough posting for today. Hope you have a great day and a Happy New Year!!!
I was introduced to this online dating site OKCupid and thought I'd give it a try. So far, it's one of the better sites I've ever been on. And it's FREE!! Yeah, I said free...100% totally free! Don't have to pay to send a message to someone or browse or anything else like that. And they use the same algorithm's as do the other pay sites to match you. Anyway, while there, I was also introduced to HelloQuizzy,which is a neat little quiz/test site. They have close to like 5000+ quizzes/tests to take for enjoyment and entertainment. Quite fun! I also have gotten into creating tests also and have done 3 so far..working on a 4th. Simple little tests...Name That Tune types, using midi's for listening. A tad easier than the ones where they simply type out the lyrics to a song. At least you get to listen. Anyway, if you are interested, check em out. I don't think you actually have to be a member of HelloQuizzy to take them, unless you want to keep up on your progress. I'm including the links to my tests so you can take them if you like. Hope you enjoy!
Name That Tune - 80's Edition
Name That Tune - Movies Edition
Name That Tune - 90's Edition
I think they turned out pretty good. The 80's was my first one, so it may seem a little...less...refined than the other 2. Anyway, the 4th one that I'm working on is a TV Theme edition. As soon as I get it up and running, I'll post it here for you. As will I do with any others that I come up with!
Ok, enough posting for today. Hope you have a great day and a Happy New Year!!!
After Christmas...
Well, well, well...it's after Christmas. Even though it wasn't that big of a thing this year...it sure was just as hectic getting last minute things done. I'm talking shopping on Christmas eve to get a few last minute things. Woo-boy! Never will that happen again! Spent all day Christmas eve getting last minute things done around the house and finished up JUST IN TIME for the company to get here. I mean, just as they walked in, the last item was being taken care of. Talk about cutting it close! Anywho...
Remember a couple of posts ago I mentioned that I had an interview. Well, I got the email this weekend that the job had been filled. I'm slightly disappointed, but they may have had another applicant that was better qualified. So I can't really blame them for going with someone with more experience, than someone that would have to learn. Although, I was very willing to learn! Well, that's ok b/c I do have another interview coming up sometime in January. Don't know the date just yet, but hoping it's early in the month. If that one comes through, I will be working from home. No, it's not one of those crazy work at home deals you see on tv, this one is legit. Found it through a local news station that did a work at home segment. I'll be doing customer service (answering calls, taking orders, etc) for a client of this company. All from my own computer at home! That would be awesome, as I have kind of taken the position that I think I would prefer to work from home, instead of actually going somewhere to work! No co-workers to interrupt or bother me, no supervisor looking over my shoulder, no particular dress code (best part) and no commute (2nd best part). Of course, there are 2 pieces of equipment that I would need to get, but that's easy. And less than $100 to boot!
Mama and I plan to spend New Year's Eve up at our hangout, Szarkas. Who knows, maybe something good will happen that will signify the things to come in '09. Goodness knows, mama and I both need something good to happen for us right now. We're both stressed out, b/c I'm not working and unable to help with the bills. Nor do I have medical insurance and the one medication that I absolutely have to have is over $200 for a month supply. Mama suggested I try to get on a program that my great aunt was on before she passed to help out with my meds. I may look into it. I just know I need something! I have a physical coming up the end of January, however I'm going to have to cancel that and reschedule it when I have the money or insurance to go!
I'm still a bit bitter over what happened at my previous job. I still feel as if I was pushed out in an unfair manner. They may not see it that way, but I do. Mama told me the other day when she called in g-dad's meds that I didn't want her to go up there. I know why. We're thinking about transferring g-dad's meds elsewhere after the first of the year. Like to Wally-World or something. Anywhere but there. My only thing, is the one med that I take that's over $200...Im going to have to shop around and see just where I can get the best deal on that med. It's plum crazy!
Well, enough for now...I've probably bored you to tears already. I'm sure you have more important things to do than to read my rants and sob story! :o)~
Remember a couple of posts ago I mentioned that I had an interview. Well, I got the email this weekend that the job had been filled. I'm slightly disappointed, but they may have had another applicant that was better qualified. So I can't really blame them for going with someone with more experience, than someone that would have to learn. Although, I was very willing to learn! Well, that's ok b/c I do have another interview coming up sometime in January. Don't know the date just yet, but hoping it's early in the month. If that one comes through, I will be working from home. No, it's not one of those crazy work at home deals you see on tv, this one is legit. Found it through a local news station that did a work at home segment. I'll be doing customer service (answering calls, taking orders, etc) for a client of this company. All from my own computer at home! That would be awesome, as I have kind of taken the position that I think I would prefer to work from home, instead of actually going somewhere to work! No co-workers to interrupt or bother me, no supervisor looking over my shoulder, no particular dress code (best part) and no commute (2nd best part). Of course, there are 2 pieces of equipment that I would need to get, but that's easy. And less than $100 to boot!
Mama and I plan to spend New Year's Eve up at our hangout, Szarkas. Who knows, maybe something good will happen that will signify the things to come in '09. Goodness knows, mama and I both need something good to happen for us right now. We're both stressed out, b/c I'm not working and unable to help with the bills. Nor do I have medical insurance and the one medication that I absolutely have to have is over $200 for a month supply. Mama suggested I try to get on a program that my great aunt was on before she passed to help out with my meds. I may look into it. I just know I need something! I have a physical coming up the end of January, however I'm going to have to cancel that and reschedule it when I have the money or insurance to go!
I'm still a bit bitter over what happened at my previous job. I still feel as if I was pushed out in an unfair manner. They may not see it that way, but I do. Mama told me the other day when she called in g-dad's meds that I didn't want her to go up there. I know why. We're thinking about transferring g-dad's meds elsewhere after the first of the year. Like to Wally-World or something. Anywhere but there. My only thing, is the one med that I take that's over $200...Im going to have to shop around and see just where I can get the best deal on that med. It's plum crazy!
Well, enough for now...I've probably bored you to tears already. I'm sure you have more important things to do than to read my rants and sob story! :o)~
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I Guess It's Official...
Well, I do believe it's official now...I am no longer desired to return to PG Drug. This is evident based on the fact that when I went in this evening to pick up g-dad's medications...I was handed my national certification. Well, they just don't know what they are going to miss. It seems to me, that they are "weeding" out employees that were there prior to the buy-out by Midelu, Inc. So, I wonder who's next? And if that isn't the case, then are they weeding out the undesirables..ie the ones that aren't skinny, pretty or such? Regardless of their work ethic? Whatever it is, that's what it feels like to me. And those that are still there, that were there before the buy-out...should beware...it could happen to you also! I have refrained from being negative about what's happened to me. And I will still do so...however unfair I feel that it was in the way that I was "let go". Yeah, I feel like crying, screaming at the top of my lungs. It's not fair, to me nor anyone else that this will happen to. In as such, I will probably move my scrips, as well as g'dad's from there. As much as I love this community and my customers as well as supporting the local small businesses, I will not patronize a store in which I was a HUGE part of, that now has treated me so unfair. Makes one wonder just how much more unfairness will happen? Right now, there are 4 employees left that were there before the buy-out...and I wish them the best of luck and hopes that it doesn't happen to them. I feel cheated by the way that I was "pushed" out. And that's exactly what happened...my hours were cut back (with no input from myself, mind you) and I was basically "forced" into taking the medical leave (as well as told that if anyone asked me, it was MY decision to take the leave). Also, I was told that while I was out...noone would be hired on a full time basis. Let's see...at least 2 new people were hired that I'm aware of. Not sure if they are full time or not, but in any event, in that same breath, I was told that I could come back in January on a part time basis...and NOT guaranteed my full time position. According to a few people that I have talked to regarding short term medical leave...I AM guaranteed a position equal to or better than the position I had when I went out. Within a 90 day period. Well, I had every intention of returning to PG the first week in January, well before the 90 days would be up. There went that intention right out the window. I'm sure I will be missed...yeah right! Anyway, just had to get that off my chest. I feel better now! I think!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Doctors, Another Funeral, and Interviews...
Ok ok...so it's been the week before T-giving since I've posted anything! I know...too damn long, right? Well, here goes nothing...
I did go back to the doc for that follow up visit, in which she stated that my thyroid was very "out of whack", which that's no surprise to me. Yet, it was still too early to tell if the dose she put me on helped any. I have a physical coming up in January, and maybe we can tell a little more then. Oh, and speaking of that, I just got a letter in the mail the other day stating that my primary physician would no longer be practicing there...he is going into Hospice and Palliative care. That sucks, b/c we had finally found a doc that would actually listen to us and learned our ways and such and now we have to re-establish with another doc. I commend him for the career change, but it still sucks that he'll no longer be my doc. I'll miss "sunshine"...that's what I called him, as he called me "lil bear"; thanks largely in part to mama! As for the rheumatologist, I don't see her again for 6 months. And we'll see then how that goes and how things are improving or not improving.
Yes, it does say another funeral...a woman that our family has known for as long as I can remember passed away the week after T-giving. She was my maternal grandmother's best friend and considered an "aunt" to me. Though we knew it would only be a matter of time once Hospice was called in, it was still a bit hard to take. The visitation and the funeral itself was beautiful. She will be missed.
Do you recall in my last post I referred to possibly looking around for another job?? Well, I had found a posting in the newspaper for a position and applied. Last Friday, I got the call for an interview. So, this past Tues. Dec 9, I went for that interview. I think it went really well, but I'm not getting my hopes up too high so as to set myself up for disappointment if I don't land this one. They told me they would call me within a week or so to let me know, due to them having another interview or 2. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I do get it, b/c I think I would be a great fit for this company. It's an independent drug store, however, they don't deal directly with the public on a large basis. They do mostly Hospice medications and compounding. I'm excited at the possibility of going to work for this company. Possibly a little less stress since I wouldn't be dealing with the public on a large basis. We'll see.
I haven't mentioned anything to PG Drug yet, b/c I don't know if I have this job. If I get it, then I will let them know. But until then, I can't burn that bridge just in case.
I'm working on getting our Christmas cards mailed this weekend or first of next week so that hopefully they'll reach everyone before Christmas. If you want one, and know I don't have your address or what-not, send me a note here with your address and I'll send ya one! Some of you that read this (T) I don't have an address for.
Ok, I think this one is long enough...please, hang around though and listen to my christmas music. I love christmas music and have put together an awesome play list for your enjoyment!!
I did go back to the doc for that follow up visit, in which she stated that my thyroid was very "out of whack", which that's no surprise to me. Yet, it was still too early to tell if the dose she put me on helped any. I have a physical coming up in January, and maybe we can tell a little more then. Oh, and speaking of that, I just got a letter in the mail the other day stating that my primary physician would no longer be practicing there...he is going into Hospice and Palliative care. That sucks, b/c we had finally found a doc that would actually listen to us and learned our ways and such and now we have to re-establish with another doc. I commend him for the career change, but it still sucks that he'll no longer be my doc. I'll miss "sunshine"...that's what I called him, as he called me "lil bear"; thanks largely in part to mama! As for the rheumatologist, I don't see her again for 6 months. And we'll see then how that goes and how things are improving or not improving.
Yes, it does say another funeral...a woman that our family has known for as long as I can remember passed away the week after T-giving. She was my maternal grandmother's best friend and considered an "aunt" to me. Though we knew it would only be a matter of time once Hospice was called in, it was still a bit hard to take. The visitation and the funeral itself was beautiful. She will be missed.
Do you recall in my last post I referred to possibly looking around for another job?? Well, I had found a posting in the newspaper for a position and applied. Last Friday, I got the call for an interview. So, this past Tues. Dec 9, I went for that interview. I think it went really well, but I'm not getting my hopes up too high so as to set myself up for disappointment if I don't land this one. They told me they would call me within a week or so to let me know, due to them having another interview or 2. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I do get it, b/c I think I would be a great fit for this company. It's an independent drug store, however, they don't deal directly with the public on a large basis. They do mostly Hospice medications and compounding. I'm excited at the possibility of going to work for this company. Possibly a little less stress since I wouldn't be dealing with the public on a large basis. We'll see.
I haven't mentioned anything to PG Drug yet, b/c I don't know if I have this job. If I get it, then I will let them know. But until then, I can't burn that bridge just in case.
I'm working on getting our Christmas cards mailed this weekend or first of next week so that hopefully they'll reach everyone before Christmas. If you want one, and know I don't have your address or what-not, send me a note here with your address and I'll send ya one! Some of you that read this (T) I don't have an address for.
Ok, I think this one is long enough...please, hang around though and listen to my christmas music. I love christmas music and have put together an awesome play list for your enjoyment!!
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