Fakers

As I began saying on FB...

I am tired of "fake" people. People that claim to be your friend and that they will be there if you need to talk, or need a shoulder, or need to get away for a few hours. Ha! Yeah, right!

Why tell someone, especially in an hour of grief/need, that you are there for them and to call them if you need to talk, or to cry on their shoulder...if you are NOT going to be there for them? Or if you are going to IGNORE every attempt they make to get your help?? Why?!? What's the point?? That's like telling a lie about something...it's useless and pointless!

Whatever happened to REAL friends? Friends that last through the years? Why have people become so fake? Why the facades? Why so shallow? It used to be that you could stand by someone's word. If they gave their word...it stood...regardless. Now, good luck even GETTING a word!

And why is it that, I'm there to help people (willing to drop what I'm doing in a friends time of need), but when I ask for help...I get excuses. I get shot down and don't get the help? I'm sick of it! It hurts me too bad every time it happens and I'm tired of being hurt. I don't enjoy it.

You people think it's fun to hurt me don't you? Yeah, that's what I thought! All my life I have felt nothing but hurt from just about EVERYONE I know. And alot of it comes from the same people...every single time!

All my life I said, all my life. From the time I was little, even up until now. Ever wonder why I make fun of myself? Call myself fat? Call myself a whale? Make hurtful remarks about myself? Well, I'll tell you...BECAUSE IT HURTS ME LESS THAN WHEN YOU DO IT TO ME!! That's why. Ever stop to think that God made us all different for a reason? Some fat, some skinny, some attractive, some not attractive? Even different races and skin tones? Well it's called DIVERSITY people. If we all looked the same, dressed the same, acted the same..it would be a damn boring world, wouldn't it? Thought so!

I'm tired of the hurt and the frustrations in my life! Maybe I'm being a little petty here, but after a while, all the little hurtful things that you do to me, that you don't realize hurt me...they build up. And they keep building and keep building...and that does NOTHING but cause me to delve deeper into myself until eventually, I hit the point I'm at now. That I'm FED UP WITH IT ALL! And I let it loose. Thankfully, I have found blogging to take it out on and am less likely to take it out on someone that I truly care about who just happens to be talking to me at the wrong time when it explodes out of me like Mt St Helena!

Stop and think people...even the LITTLE things can be hurtful to people. Stop and think people...what might not hurt you might hurt someone else. If you truly care about someone, you will stick to your word. You will be there in their time of need.

I know I'm one of those people that is willing to be there for those I consider friends. And as of RIGHT NOW, if I help you out, if I'm there for you...and when I need you, I get excuses or you tell me you'll be there and then not...forget it, you are out of my life...for good.

I've been hurt way too much and dammit, it's time I take control of myself and NOT allow anyone to hurt me anymore! All I ask for out of life is loving family and friends...and respect. Is that too much to ask for? I don't think so.

I'm tired tired tired. And it's gonna end...RIGHT NOW!