Have You Ever?

Have You Ever

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Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for the words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
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Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
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What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
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I was listening to this song today...just kind of in an old skool mood. It got me to thinking about that one that I feel this way about. Wondering, does he feel the same way? Does he think about me as I think about him? In all reality, he's all I think about. Why don't I do something about it, you ask? I ask myself that all the time. I think I'm scare to. I'm afraid he'll reject me. I'm afraid he won't feel the same way and I'll be let down, my bubble burst.

Just thinking about him, talking about him, talking to him (when I catch him at a good time)...makes my stomach flip flop...my heart race...a smile to caress my face! It's hard NOT to think about him.

But I just can not bring myself to tell him. I know I know...you should always tell a person how you feel, b/c you may never get the chance...but I'm too afraid. I don't want my heart to break any more. I know he wouldn't break it...but if he didn't feel the same way, my heart would be shattered into tiny little pieces and I'm not so sure that I could repair it this time. It's been repaired so many times in the past, and each time it breaks...the pieces get smaller and smaller, making it more difficult than the last time to repair it.

Mama's always told me to "chase him until he catches you". Well, that's what I've been doing...he just doesn't take the bait. I've tried since we first met to hook him...

Am I using the wrong bait? Am I dangling the hook too high for him to grab? Has the line snapped all together and I just haven't realized it?

Maybe I just need to give up on him...give up on love completely...and face it that I will probably be alone the rest of my life.