Ho-Hum Cont.

Ok, so where was I? Oh yeah...

Funny? I think so...but then again, I must have a weird sense of humor! Maybe I'm just paranoid since I'm going through this difficult time in my life where I don't know what's going on with me physically and feel as if I have no control over anything!

Anyway, just some thoughts I was having.

On a brighter note, I did manage to dig up alot of information on the Willard family history while on vacation. I'm writing it all down in a notebook until I can transfer it to a family tree. Even found gravesites of some family and took pics of the markers and such.

We also started bowling on the WTQR Kingpin league on Tuesday nights. That's gonna be fun...after all, that's what we enjoy, HAVING FUN!! And I think that league is going to be a BLAST! We had our last coach-it-up class tonight, then next Wednesday we have the Co-Ed league meeting...and alot of the same people that we bowled with over the summer will be there...like Fruit-Loop aka Cyril, Lynn, Rachel, and I'm not sure who else. That will be fun too!

I just hope that physically I'll be able to bowl 2 nights back to back...this will be the test. I go on the 11th to see a neurologist, whom I hope can see what my family doctor seems to be ignoring. I will post up-dates on that as I can. I'm kind of excited but scared at the same time. Excited that I may/will find out what's wrong with me, but scared of what it may be. My best friend said something to me that bothers me...said I have "the walk" of someone with MS (multiple sclerosis). THAT'S SCARY!! I would rather it be FM (fibromyalgia) than MS! MS seems worse than FM. My biggest fear of it all is that I could have to quit working! I can't do that! I need the $$ too bad and the benefits. I know I could probably get disability...but I'm too young for that! Besides, I do love my job! I would go crazy if I had to stop working! But, I've also heard that even being on disability, I could still work part-time. I could deal with that, I guess I would have to! I would rather work full-time though..without disability! Maybe I'm just being paranoid again or maybe it's all this fear. Is that fear natural? Or wrong?