Such Is My Life...

Ok, it's Monday, just before I'm going to leave for work. As with all Monday's, the boss I have trouble with will be there. I'm going in with a good 'tude this am...let's see if he still has his ass on his shoulders as he did on Friday. I had an extremely bad weekend physically and stayed in bed all weekend, except for the hour or so when I went to the grocery store with Mama on Saturday. I'm very weak right now, but I'll push myself today like always. We'll see come lunch just how it goes!

Well, it's lunch and I guess he really hasn't been an ass...except for one teensy weensy thing..I specifically asked him to NOT have to do the order today b/c I was so weak and hurting and the first thing out of his mouth was "Yeah, you are doing it." So, does he flippin' care about his employees? HELL NO! Well, certain ones anyway. It makes me think that he treats me that way to try to make me leave. Unless I HAVE to medically, I won't give him the satisfaction if I can help it. Sometimes I wish there was something I could do to make HIS life there a living hell, like he seems to be trying to do to me!

I'm weak and hurting really badly today...I'm also very emotional...crying for no reason, just out of nowhere. I can't live like this! This is not a normal "me"! And I know it's part of the symptoms that go along with whatever it is I'm going through. It's all I can do to write out my feelings right now.

After lunch, it really wasn't any better. Not until 630 when it was time for me to leave for the day. Of course, his 2 favorites were there. And the other 2 coworkers that were there left at 6pm. Ha! Needless to say, that from 6-630...he and his 2 favorites pretty much stayed in the office, giggling and not working. Oh, I'm sure their thoughts were "Oh, Melissa's out there, she'll do it all!" Well, I got news for them...I will not be taken for granted nor will they take advantage of me either. So, I kept myself busy doing OTHER things, things that kept me from getting the phone or the register...like, disappearing into the back room WITHOUT telling them, and taking the trash out and making that task last for like 20 minutes...the last 20 minutes of my shift that is. I know that's vindictive, but dammit, I refuse to let them take me for granted or play around and be their fall guy. Nope, it will not happen...I won't let it! They want to pull that kind of b.s., fine, let em...but I won't be the fall guy and I won't pick up their slack either! If it gets busy, it gets busy and I'll do other things. I'll find something to do.

This weekend was really bad for me. The stress I had on Friday really took it's toll on me. Saturday I hurt so bad, but I went on anyway to the store with Mama and then came home and helped her with dinner. Then, back to bed I went. Fell asleep around 1030 or so, then woke up with a migraine headache around 1am. Took half a vicodin, paced for a little bit then managed to ease back into bed around 2, then the headache returned with a vengence around 3ish. Took another half vicodin, but wasn't able to go back to bed till 630-7ish. Slept for another 2 or 3 hours, then got up and took the babydog out. Mama was still asleep b/c she had a bad night Saturday also (she has a crick in her neck and that was keeping her awake). So neither she nor I were worth anything on Sunday. Then on Sunday, I stayed in bed all day...until Mama came and woke me up for dinner. I helped her get dinner on the table then partially cleared the dishes and then back to bed I went. Stayed there until I got up this morning. Hoping that all the rest would make me ok for today, but it didn't. My arms, shoulders, legs and back muscles ache so bad, I just want to cry. Not to mention the cramping. And of course, if that isn't bad enough, it's that time of the month...which I have noticed over time seems to make everything worse.

Well, tomorrow is Tuesday...and the ass boss has me doing the order AGAIN!! Thankfully, he has 2 people doing the order tomorrow. I'm really getting tired of his 'tude towards me and putting all the crappy stuff off on me. If it keeps up much longer, I will go once more to my other boss and tell him of my feelings. Maybe if I just keep going to him about it, something will get done? Nah...doubt it! Anyway...I'm going to end this post here...with thoughts of bowling tomorrow night. Hopefully I'll feel up to it and will be able to bowl my best!